i had a thought
i feel like no one really tlaks about what its like to simultaneously hate every single person in existence on a societal level and then love every person on an individual level like.
fuck i hate these poeple but that family over there in the walmart looks so sweet
i hate everyone as an idea but then when i see a real person it is like "wow maybe we deserve to live" do you understand? and like in addition to that its difficult to hate everyone and also want/have friends because some days uou are like "WOW I AM NOT IN THE MOOD TO INTERACT WITH ANYONE I HATE THESE PEOPEL" and then other days it is like "wow if you message me i will literally lay down my life in appreciation and love for you and you are the most amazing person ive evr met." liek MAKE UP OYOUR MIND ???
and it sounds normal like from a hormonal standpoit. you know you have different moods so of course they are boumd to affect how you see relationships but it feels so drastic because i find myself wantig to block people never speak to anyone ever again !! and like almost doing it and then next dau i am like wow if they tlak to me ill know what heaven feles like. LIEK STOP STOPS TP STOPS TOPSTOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP BE NORMAL
breakdown over...